Saturday, January 19, 2008

maybe in 2008 i'll write about these things

I know I've said this before, but I would like to post more often and get in the habit of writing about what is going on with my work. There are a few things that I'm feeling pretty excited about, so I'm hoping to tell you about them in the next few months.

As a preview:
--I actually started counseling on Wednesday. I have had this sense that God is using this time in my life to give me emotional health and stability. Lately it is very clear that my emotional volatility holds me back from a lot of things, particularly in ministry. The woman I met with asked me questions about my family tree and the timeline of my life, and we unexpectedly focused a little bit on high school, a period of time I haven't thought much about lately. It was kind of strange to go back and think about how some of those events still effect me now.
--I've been mulling over the concept of "women's leadership development" and how we as women are typically motivated to serve in the church. I don't think I'm coming up with any original ideas when I throw out that we're ridiculously different from men. At the risk of generalizing things too much, I'm developing some theories in my own mind about a woman's need for security in ministry versus a man's need for significance. A man might ask, "Do I have what it takes to succeed in this role?" A woman might ask, "Who will go with me?" Bottom line: women need something very different, and I'd like to that difference to become more acknowledged in the fabric of our church. Not sure what that means, but I sure do sound like Elisabeth Elliott right now. Heh.
--We're leading a trip to downtown Detroit for spring break, and I am feeling like Detroit might just be the only place I'd want to spend a week right about now. I have no idea why, but I'm drawn in and excited.

In the meantime, I'm sick as a dog. I seriously haven't been this sick since I was a kid. It started a week ago with a sore throat that lasted for five days, and yesterday, the sore throat seemed to creep up the right side of my neck and then settle in my ear. Unfortunately, I was the CORE retreat by then, so I took some Nyquil last night and hoped for sleep. Before I could settle in, though, I started in with this dry cough that I still have today. No more aching ear, but everything seems to be clogged up, and still, the perpetual sore throat. I've been in and out of work for the last week, without a real sick day that goes from waking up to going to bed. Maybe I should do that tomorrow.


Krysta said...

Meghan! Thanks for all your blog comments. Yes, I have read Gluten-Free Girl; she is very excited all the time. Also, I love that you are posting more. I hope you guys are doing well and hopefully, we can get together soon.

H said...

i came across your blog curious for old faces from new life. my husband and i used to be pretty involved way back when. i remember kevin but i think you were still new at the time we left. i don't think i ever met you personally- different groups and such.
i guess i'm leaving a comment because i identify with a lot of the words/thoughts that you have written. new life needs (or needed at the time i was there) some strong women voices. we went through one of the toughest times in our lives while being a part of that church and felt very abandoned by a lot of people who claimed to love us. not blaming anyone here but no one seemed to know what to do with us or with the depression that was plaguing my soul at the time. i pray that you stand up for the women around you and take care of those who are a part of your church RIGHT NOW and focus on loving them. i understand that new life is evangelistic but (not to sound silly or anything) sometimes the "flock" gets sick and needs to be taken care of as well. don't abandon them but love them fiercely. i pray that you are taken care of. thanks for your blog. i wish you and kevin all the best!!

p.s. read eat, love, pray by elizabeth gilbert and desert sojourn by debi holmes-binney. and try listening to (if you don't already) g. love, a fine frenzy, missy higgins, rachael yamagata, patty griffin, and clear. you already have super-fine taste in music anyway! :)
i also went through counseling- it saved my life- but these books helped change my thinking and emotional patterns as well:
*telling yourself the truth by william backus & marie chapian.
*undoing depression by richard o'connor
*how to win over depression by tim lahaye
*how to succeed at being yourself by joyce meyers

i'll be pulling for you, meghan. -h

Meghan said...

hey H, i meant to write back. thanks for all the great suggestions--i'm always on the lookout for new books, so i welcome any others you'd recommend.

i've been enjoying A Fine Frenzy on your recommendation. and i added Patty Griffin to my profile, because she's been making me happy and sad for years (Mary, Peter Pan, Burgundy Shoes, etc.)--can't believe i forgot her.

thanks for leaving a comment. i don't get many and i realized that i really like it when i do!